Hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn

This day couldn't get any more firating.
I took like 45mins to sign into msn cuz I DONT KNOW WHY.

I could say that I'm angry at the whole world right now
But I think right now, the person I'm angriest with is
myself.
So, anguish and anger fills my heart.

Fuckit, I'm gonna go write my letter to my sister now.

/a part of a the jigsaw puzzle just fell out again

Omg my V3 died on my
boo!
I've just lost all my pics and my contacts (the ones stored in my phone)
URGH.
Haha my spare phone (nokia) allows me to type real fast tho haha :)
Nevermind, I WANT MY NEW PHONE NOW. Hoho
Does anyone wanna buy me one? HINTHINT.....

Pirates was good! Thought it was light hearted and funny
:)
Except for the fact that the whole crew has to watch it together again
DON'T ASK.
But it was still good.
Haha and yes I think I've gotten over it already.

Anyways here're the photos that we took while we were SUPPOSEDLY waiting for our movie to start at lido.
Yes and I stress, don't ask.

The 2 boys with cute shirts and I


Ty and I


Nat, Dan, Meaghan. Oh gosh Dan can you please BEHAVE!


The best friends and I


Poor meggy got cut off...


Meg, Amos, Ty and I. IJ girls and ACS boys? Hmmm


Aww how cute


YONGKAIIIII!!! Omg Yonkies sOoOOoOO CUTE


Dan thinks he's damn sexy and thinks his boobs are huge


Flanking him. Ho Ho


Eeeee so impromptu and ugly


Nice one! Haha 3 couples


FUNNY FACES GUYS!!! Gee, I'm the only girl with a funny face


Look HUMSUM?


BE GAY


Look at poor yonkies


The girls :)


So adorableXxxXx


YAYYYY ok done with these photos :)

Here's a flashback to dinner with Nic at Crystal.

EE check out THE FRINGE and the cute nicoleeeee:)


My stead


Hehe so glad I got rid of that fringe.
Nic's leaving tmr :( I'm gonna miss you girl and we didn't get a chance to properly spend time together. After my As k?? LOVE YOU LOADS GIRL *muack

Alrights I'm off to dinner.
Ciaos.
CRAZY WHACK!
No one in this world'd understand

//Disclaimer: For those who hate reading boring aimless blog entries, I encourage you to NOT read on.

It's the end of the week.
The end of the afternoon.
It scares me.
I'm frightened
Know what's funny? Haha I think emotionally, I'm unhealthy.

Imagine
your bed taken away from you;
the source of comfort from pain
the daily growing fondness of that bedsheet
the place where you talk on the phone
and laugh till your stomach aches
or share your deepest secrets and sorrows
and also the place where you cry yourself to sleep
the attachment to those nice fluffy pillows
the irritance when people dirty the silky quilt
How would you cope

It's scary isn't it?
It'll be painful won't it?
Would you be sad?
I mean like everyone just loves their beds.
Ok I'm quite incoherent and disjointed.

Hmm, really hope that I'll get to watch Pirates tmr!
It'll be exciting and fun right ? Hope so la.

Alright I'll leave everyone with a song.

All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you
My bones ache, my skin feels cold
And I'm getting so tired and so old

The anger swells in my guts
And I won't feel these slices and cuts
I want so much to open your eyes
Cos I need you to look into mine

Tell me that you'll open your eyes [x4]

Get up, get out, get away from these liars
Cos they don't get your soul or your fire

Take my hand, knot your fingers through mine
And we'll walk from this dark room for the last time

Every minute from this minute now
We can do what we like anywhere
I want so much to open your eyes
Cos I need you to look into mine

Tell me that you'll open your eyes [x8]

All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you

Hope you people like it.
I'm out.
Need to go abt the routines.
Life seems even more bland and meaningless now.

I wish the world was a different place
Like no school, no work, no unhappiness, no complications.
Okay, maybe for a day.
It'd be too simple. And then the simplicity'd just like kill me. The boredom will run through my veins and I'll be so choked, I'd die! Okay I think it's time not to be so morbid.

Wahhh why is this world such an angsty place?
Okay maybe only the teenagers.
So much ANGER, FRUSTRATION, PAIN, CONFUSION, ANNOYANCE, SADNESS etcetcetc the list goes on.
I swear it's the hormones, the BLOODY hormones.
Ok I think I'm rambing and ranting complete rubbish..

You know what I really want right now?
A nice cuddle.
SAYANG ME SOMEONE!
Hahahahaha. Ok retard.
I'm off to go do something productive ciao.

SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL.
Haha people have been saying that I'm very strange :(
WHY!!!
School's murdering meeeeee.
And I'll go blunder someone soon :)
Yay ok dinnertime.

School today was like.. EMPTY. Boring shit.
Ho ho but I lived.
Hmmmmm
hmmm
hmm
maybe it isn't as bad as it seems.
Maybe I'll start building up those bricks one at a time, placing it neatly above one another and form that wall around me again. Maybe I'll just shut up and stay secluded, withdraw into my own reclusive corner. Maybe maybe. Maybe then I wouldn't have to feel anymore. Maybe then I wouldn't have to believe anymore.
Maybe maybe.

But it's okay, nah, I'm fine :)
All happy dandy :)

Greetingss..
school's been dominating my life.
Sigh I can so foresee this till the end of A levels. Haha nevermind, PERSERVERE!
Hmm, pretty much been like schoolschoolschool. Some internet time, MUSIC, studying, and emailing my sister. Sigh, I've learnt to just accept it I guess and be happy for her. It's sad but my heart aches at times but I guess all I can do is push it out of my mind and SMILE right? :) I love you jie and I'm already missing you.
Alrights so anyway Snow Patrol's new songs are flooding my ears right now, feels sooo good.
And all I hope right now is that everybody will be happy and like not be confused or discontented or anything. It sucks feeling down, I know what it feels like. Too much of it lately. And thanks to those who've helped me thru any shitty period of my life, I really appreciate it. You know who you are. :)
Okies I'm out.

The day has arrived.

You ask me if I'm ready
but anxiety clouds my thoughts
fear grips my heart
and tears fill my eyes.

I envy all those people who........

I'm standing in a lift
wanting desperately to go up
but all I see are the numbers lit up
and the feeling of the weight of everything
press down against me
while I continue to try and fight it
but the strength I yield is not enough
it's never gonna be enough

My friend once told me
act tough only

[sorry, my 15min online race isnt enough for a long dedication]

you're always there. here. present.
24/7
It counts and I thank you.

/I've run dry and needles don't prick me anymore.