I'm blogging again. 2nd time today.
Just came home from a movie with my parents. We watched SPL. Okay, dont ask me what it stands for cuz after the show, I still dont know what it is. It's this Hong Kong gangster show! Really really good I must say. Full of POW, action! Plus, the storyline is good and really sad too. I didnt like the ending tho, but that's only cuz it was a sad ending. Boohoo *tears. Anyway, it's been a while since I've not gotten bored during a movie. This was like eyes glued to the screen throughout the whole show so I'm pretty satisfied now. :)
Oooh tmr, alot of new movies are opening. Yipeedeeyay! Like Saw2. I wanna watch! Plus Aeonflux! Haha yes, moviebuff am I.

Mmm today's movie made me think about life at certain points.
Like really, if it were the last day of ur life and you knew it, how would you spend it? Would you spend it with a loved one? Would you mope about it? Would you go on with life pretending that it wasn't the last day of your life? Hmmm. It says alot about a person with regards to his/her choice. So yes, if it really were the last day of ur life (choy!), would you go up to your arch enemy and clear the air? Would you proclaim ur true feelings to that special someone? Or would you just not tell in fear of that person also feeling the same way yet knowing that was the last time he/she was gonna see you?
So actually, I think maybe it is true that one should spend everyday like it were the last day of their lives. Cuz we really dont want to live to regret. Like things we should have done or could have done, things we should have said, things we should NOT have said, the truth that we should have spoken of and the list goes on and on.
Thinking about this, it makes me wonder about what things I have left unsaid and maybe certain things that I could have done if not for some issues that I have with myself. And these issues still remain pending. I guess it's pretty simple to pen this all down and like what Manda calls it, "talk shit", but it's just so much more difficult to carry it out isn't it? It sometimes all lies in one's character. But there's one thing I always believe in, it's that actions speak louder than words. But at times, words can be of a great help too. And yes, I agree with Nic, always mean what you say and say what you mean. Cuz what one says can affect other people alot so pple should just watch what they say and do.
Sighh, what happened to all my superduper random/retarded entries? Haha, like those which I just simply ranted about my day's happenings and laughed about silly things. Nah, it's okay to ponder and think sometimes.
I'm off to stare into the blackbox or maybe just sleep on this.
My days seem to be getting drearier. Good night.

//mood >> melancholy
//spinning >> listen to your heart

Okayy I'm home today. It's been a while since I've slacked at home.
Nicole's coming back on Friday! YAYYY! :) I cant wait. So excitinggg. Hehe. It's coming soon soon soon. It's gonna be a blast!

Just watched White Chicks. Yes, I know I'm slow. Omg, it was really funnyyyy. Finally, I got to watch it. And I watched Zoolander yesterday. That was just completely retarded. Hmmm, funny shows serve the purpose of cheering you up right? Usually, it's supposed to. Well, haha I tried it but I guess it's too short term. Your laughter only resonates for that split second and then it dissipates. Okay, this sounds horrifically cynical but yes, it's all true.
Know what sucks too? Poxy's not in Singapore now. 7days! :( Sighhhh.

Alright, I cant wait to dance for IJ :) Dance Night 2006 sounds so good. Haha time to put on my dancing shoes again and rock the stage! Haha gosh that's gonna feel so awesome. :D

Okie, this is bad. It's the start of a new month! DECEMBER! How?!!! I dont want holidays to enddddd. Next year's gonna be so scary. As and stuff. Oh but at least I'll take part in orientation 2006. That'll be fun! OGLs :)

Mmmm this week is gonna fly by. The weekend will be gone in the wink of an eye. I can foresee it all. Dum dee dum kay, I think this entry is really random and disjointed.
Haha doesnt make much sense at all. O yeah, I cant believe I lost so many of my friends to WOW! Omg, please God, save me. And know what makes it worse? I lost my BESTFRIEND to WOW too.
Know what? I'll just go kill myself now.

Tolerance

1 : capacity to endure pain or hardship : ENDURANCE, FORTITUDE, STAMINA

2 a : sympathy or indulgence for beliefs or practices differing from or conflicting with one's own

Interesting, eh?
Actually, it makes alot (yes, alot) of sense.

You must be fucking blind and deaf to not know that I'm irritated/pissed.

Ahem, pardon me.

My endurance has been stretched and tattered of late.

Good night world.

Okay I realise that I havent been blogging.
So here I am!
I cut my hair! Haha but no one can tell the difference. How sad! I think it looks really different actually. Like, it's so much more layereddd. Anyway, that's not the point. I actually wanted change. But this change isn't really considered drastic. Maybe I shld really do the funny fringe thingy. But then again.... Okay, nevermind. Haha

I love the weather now. It's nice and cold. I love rainy days. :) Beats hot and humid days anytime. Especially the other day when we had hockey in the most horrid (HOT) weather and we all had UGLY (yes, very ugly) highsock tannlines. Bleah. Disgusting.

Alright, listening to disney songs now. The weather is making me sleepy and homey. :) But I still feel like going out and watching Prime. I heard it's good. We'll see... Just hope that we can get tickets. It's a Saturday. Damnnnn.

Anyway, Shenanigans last night was not bad. Quite fun. But I missed all the performances except the last one. Haha. Speaking of which, I really dont know any Guns and Roses' songs. Hmm, overall, the music SUCKED. And the prices of drinks were screwed too. Oh well. But nevermind, the company was good cuz everyone was there. So it was all good I guess.

Mannn, I've almost lost my passion for blogging! I've run out of things to say. And, I realised that December is coming really soon. :( That's bad. Means that the holidays are halfway gone! Arrrrr! The horrors! But December also means more NICOLE TIME and HOLIDAY! :) So there's good and bad I guess. Haaaa. But I really dun wanna go back to school yet. And I realise there's also alot of untouched homework and assignments. I dont even wanna think about it. It's so painful. Mannn, imagine, J2 next yr! As! Arrrrrr. Hahaha ok enough. Let's think happy thoughts here. Cant wait to see nikkipoo. :)

Mmmmmmmm.. sigh. Here I go again.
I'm not even gonna try and explain myself anymore. Much less talk in riddles.
One day, I may just blurt everything out and maybe, just maybe, that would help.
Sigh, I'm off.
Maybe I'll read a book first.

You have no idea how much I wish I could smile instead of scream or frown.
My frustration has increased by threefold and all I wanna do is punch a wall.

Everyone seems to be getting on my nerves lately.

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I'm glad to have a friend like you, Roxy.


And, I miss you dearly, Nikki.
COMEHOMESOON.


Good times this is, HALLOWEEN.
(Rox, me, Ty, Marc, Vodka cranberry, Manda, Yonks, Mel)






Ohhh, this is really FUNNY.
Ah lian * ah beng UnItE. uLtiMAteZzz. Hahahah.
No one can beat us man.


Oh, here's presenting YONKIESSSSS.
He looks so HAPPYYYY.
Must be the nice yummy rich FATTENING brownie.


Pufferfish? Haha I know you hate this.
TOO BAD.


Heehee this is funny too. Me in Douggie's pants.
Lose weight advert!


HAHA nerds in school! Very cute I must say.


Ahhh, an old one of everyone. Nice tho. It seems wayyy too long ago. Should do it again!


And last but not least, here's one of the nicest photos taken.
It was at Doug's mom's Art Gallery Opening Night.
Everyone looks so good.
(Amos, Rox, Me, Ty, Doug, Bhock, Yk)


Wow, okay, finally done. Was bored so I decided to like upload some random photos on my blog from the past. Man, resizing them is a total bitch.
Nevertheless, good times good times :)

Mmm, I guess this helped me to try and destress a bit.
Time to sleep, nights.

I'm sick of town.
I'm sick of movies.
I'm sick of hangingout.
I'm sick of shopping (ok, not really).
I'm sick of doing the usual things.
I'm sick of town.

I'm sick of everything.
URGH.
I.... NEED.... TO..... WORK.........................

Okay, I dont know really.
I just know that I really am so sick of town.
We need to find some place new to go, something new to do.
CHANGE.
Sighhhhh, manda, what happened to our changeeee? Gosh, I'm still too scared to do my drastic hairstyle thingy. I dun have the guts.
Everyday is the samedamnthing. I feel like I'm dyinggg. Rottinggggg to death. URRGHH. But yes, I know that there is alot of homework to be done. I just need my break now. Time for rest and relaxation. But somehow, I still find my life very hectic. Like I'm rushing from place to place. It annoys me abit.

Sighhh been pretty angsty lately. Need to cool down a tad bit. But somehow I cant. RAHHHHH. Actually, I'm rather angsty now too. Alot of things have been getting on my nerves. Not specific things but random small wee bit things. Like minute details that frustrate me. Some things left unspoken. Everything feels a bit open-ended. Like a story that was left untold. Like a ribbon left untied. Like a strand of hair displaced. Alright, you get my drift. Just that, patience is not my virtue. Never has, and I doubt it ever will be. And, I mean patience in every sense of its meaning. Yeah, I know, speaking in riddles.

Mannnn, I'm really tired.
Had hockey in the morning, 10 rounds in total. Ughhh. I guess I should go to bed now. Been walking around shopping the whole day. My legs are rather inert now.
Kayy, good night world.

Shopping with Rox yesterday was theraputic :)
And I'm pretty happy with what I got! YAY.

Anywayyyy, last night was the most horrid night EVER.
I hardly got a wink of sleep. It was sooo bad. I cldnt get to bed.
Went to bed at 12something. Couldnt sleep cuz I couldnt breathe. Stupid cold. So, I got outta bed at 1plus to take a cold tablet. It cleared up at around 2 plus I think. So I fell asleep for a while. Not really actually, I was tossing and turning half the time and slipping in and out of dreams. It was badddd. Then it started to rain reallyyyy heavilyy. And I was thinking maybe I cld sleep better that way. OH GOD. But you would not believe it, my alarm RANG. SHIT MAN. It was like 7am already. I was tossing and turning for like the WHOLE NIGHT! UGHH.
I feel like a damn zombie.

Nvm, harrypotter later :)

I am feeling really jumbled up right now.
URGHHHHHhHHhh
So messed up.
The clock is going ticktockticktock. And I'm irritated.
Effing messed up la. I am a complete mess.

I'm up early today :)
Feeling particularly emotional. And that's all my fault. Know why? Cuz this morning I woke up with this sudden need to read my Sec4 autographs so I pranced outta bed and went ard looking for my autograph book.

Reading it brought me back to my Sec4 carefree days. At least they seem to be a lot more carefree than now. Well, I was so emotional reading some that I almost felt like tearing. Gosh, am such a wuss! Some of them were really touching, particularly the Oogas'. Sighhh Roxy's autograph was awesomely sweeet and I loved it so much. Corinne's was so funny and cute and it made me think of all the times we did stupid things together in the name of fun. Alyssa's was as usual the ultimate sugar coated poetic autograph :) She makes me tingle. Then, Qibby's autograph really touched me cuz she wrote it from the heart and I miss you lots cutie! :) Yupp, we call each other cutie. I hope we still do yeahh cuz I still remember our ego trips. Haha. Ohh, also, Nicole's old neoprints in my book were really funny and yes dear, steads forever! Haha. Anywayy, then there was Wyna's which was so funny cuz we were 'angels' and she wrote a poem for me too. Lulu wrote the usual poem which was really retarded and nobody cld really comprehend it. Okayy, I'm going into remininscing mode. The list goes on. I read so many autographs that my eyes hurt a bit. Y'know, I'm so glad that I received all these autographs cuz well, it's irreplaceable. And I dun even see more than half the pple who wrote in it anymore. I think I'd really cry if I lost all the autographs.

Oh and yesterday, while I was in the bus on the way to school, somebody stepped in smelling like hairspray and gel. And you know what it reminded me of? Dance performances and competitions. The mad rush to get makeup and hair done. The outrageous costume changes in between. The adrenaline rush on stage. The booming music in the background. The rhythm. The applause and support you get after the performance ends. The jitters you get backstage. The cheesy smiles. Mann, it all seems like such a distant memory now. What happened to CHIJLL guys? (And yes I'm talking to Cor, Rox, Kristy, Sonia etc) That too seems to be a far off goal. Well, maybe after As or sth? A reunion of some sorts.

Anyway it sucks how I feel that I have almost lost my spark, together with my rosiness (in every sense of the word). No, I'm not talking abt appearances. It's more like in every one of those autographs, the person wrote of my chirpiness, my bubbly personality, my smiles and especially, my laughter. I dun know why, but I feel that I laugh a lot less now. I smile a lot less too. Okay maybe not the smiles but I'm pretty sure I laugh alot less now. The silly giggles I used to break into in class included. Mann, I wanna go back to those times. I really really do. Yilin even compared me to a tomato in her autograph. Where has my bubbly personality gone to? It must be hibernating somewhere. I miss it, can it please come back to me? RETURN! Haha. But well, I guess, through circumstances and conditions, people change. It's inevitable and I just hope that change isnt so drastic cuz I really miss my old self. Okayy, this paragraph seems awfully self-centred. But reflections, it is. Just let me continue even though I know it's pretty early in the morning for such depressing thoughts. Nahh, if you were wondering if I was some kinda depressed teenager, it is very much a pleasure for me to tell you that I am NOT, thank you very much :) I'm pretty happy actually. Just that the past seems so much more rewarding. Us indulging in the smallest delights and laughing at almost anything and everything. Now, I just feel old and cynical. Like a shrivelled up prune. May be a tad of an exaggeration but it's quite close to it. Goshhh, I really am feeling emotional aren't I. My paragraph seems absolutely long and relentless.

Well, people must be thinking why I bother to blog abt such things right. Cuz I know some think blogs are stupid. Need I repeat myself? Haha it's an outlet, an avenue. Especially for me to complain, vent and reflect. At times, I do feel that blogs are stupid too but I happen to like it very much now! Haha :)
Yuppp, I miss you guys a lot right now. You know who you are. All the 4/9 pple, the dancers. I do hope we can meet up real soon even though we all are leading our own separate lives. Much love. :)

PUNS :)

(I felt the dire urge to blog abt this stupid random comment)

Doug (who is currently working at Topshop): "Yeah you know, when it's like a hot girl, we hang a pink tie outside the changing room. Then if it's like the kind where once you look you get sore eyes, then it's a green tie. Then like ...."
(He goes on abt different coloured ties while I completely zone out)

Suddenly, I have an epiphany.
I point to Ty (wearing a green tee): Green "tie"! HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Okay so only I found it funny and amusing. But still!!! I was pretty tickled by my revelation okayyyy. Hahahahaa :)
The stupid things I say.
SIGH.
HEE HEE HO HO.

I could make a "I hate" list right now.

I absolutely hate having a BADDD throat. It hurts so damn much :( I woke up this morning with my monster tonsils crying out, all swollen and stuff. Mann, maybe I shld have just cut them off a longgg time ago. This is so irating cuz I've resorted to not talking to anyone and giving meer grunts and "mmms" to everyone. Darrrn. ARRRR and to make matters WORSE, I have OP on friday. I just hope and wish that my throat would heal quick. Sighhhhh. Yeahh I know, complain complain complain. Haha that's what my blog is for anyway! For my daily (or weekly) musings and complaints. :)
I soooo need to be sayanged now. Haha that sounds odd but it's TRUEEEEE. I feel like whining to someone but I've got to conserve my voice. Damn. I feel like LEAD. Yes, metal. I slept for damn long just now. Like 4 hours I think. Hee hee. Gosh PW is such a pain. After Friday, it'll all be overrrr. YAYY.

Oh and I'm an OGL! YAY :) Happyhappyjoyjoy. How exciting. I can't wait.

You know that it reallyyyy sucks that I have a bad throat. I was gonna go for hockey training this whole week la! But now I cant already. Sob sob. And it's not like I'm fit. I need to EXERCISE! Work those fats off. Workworkwork.
I feel freaking FAT. And no, I'm not kidding. It's not even one of those days.
This is bad. Okay I promise when I fully recover, I'll go exercise and be a good hocker. Hurhur.

Staying home does loosen my screws up there.

Okay shall I continue with my "I hate" list?

I hate throbbing heads.
I hate bad music.
I hate that Apple is such a cheat and didnt provide the real charger for my nano except the USB pods.
I hate that sometimes I cant find my shoe size.
I hate that I dont live near town or school.

Alrighttttt, let's not cultivate so much hate in the world. It's very painful. :)
Mannn I'm tired again. Shall go bum around on my bed.
Good night world.

Hello world! :)
Due to Corinne's request, I am here to UPDATE!
Goshh when I have the energy, I promise I will put up all the halloween photos. Haha boy are they unglam and hilarious. And yes, that night was unforgettable. The Gathering - 170 shots baby.

Alright my daily routines have been:

Sleep late, wake up, have lunch, lie on the bed and talk on the phone, wait till it's time to change, go out, movie, dinner, hang out.
So basically my life revolves around eating sleeping and going out. Haha how healthy.

Oh, and I think that I've watched almost all the non-scary movies already. Movie buffs. I wanna go ice skatingggggg. And nobody wants to listen to me la! They'd rather go to the NIGHT SAFARI okay. Come on, the night safari is hot and smelly. Ice skating is cold and windy. Haha see? Ice skating wins hands down. I dont care, I'm gonna persuade everyone to go and I promise it'll be fun. Haha another thing! KBOX! Haha that will be damn fun also. Better than hanging around town stoning. Or loitering outside paragon like yesterday?!! Haha that was badbadbad.

Mannn, I cant wait for OP to be OVER. :) Then I'll really get my freedom. La dee dums. Just need this coming week to pass quickly. Oh yeah, time for hockey training too. Need to start exercising and keeping fit cuz I am seriously farrrr from it right now. And yes, I'm scowling at this moment. UGHH.

Alright enough, yay I updated. Gosh, visuals will just make my posts so much better la.
I'm stopping here. Ciaoooo!