aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i`m feeling really tired.
i`m aching for no apparent reason.
this is BAD.
i obviously need to sleep early.
been having wayyyy too little sleep these past few days...

i often sit and wonder.
wonder abt so many things.
the wondrous possibilities.
the different paths tt we all could have taken.
it`s rather interesting.
but tiring to actually go thru every scene. play it thru ur mind.
i think that pple should always prioritise and balance their life.
yeah it sucks to make decisions sometimes but in life, dun we all need to make a choice?
the right choice.
the distinction between right and wrong.
ok my sentences dun really form my full thoughts.
it`s simply cuz this is a public blog. it`s difficult for me to express myself fully.
actually, it`s just difficult to express myself fully to anyone.
that`s why sometimes i get so frustrated i feel like just screaming out to an open, endless sea. but SINGAPORE, what sea man?!
it`s more like a bloody swamp.
haha ok i`m exaggerating.
aye
i worry that i ponder too much
and have countless blog entries abt my (sometimes) aimless ponderings.

time to stop here.
i need my sleep.

i realise that sometimes i overreact.
maybe a tad too much.
haahaa. but i noe that i had a basis to over react from.
hard core evidence.
from my source.
haha.
anyway yesterday was actually a rather horrid day which turned out not so bad after all.
must have been the harsh feelings leftover from the day before to make my day start out so bad yesterday.
so i quarrelled with my dad twice.
he couldn`t find his car keys.
was late for Camelot and got stuck outside. was fuming inside cuz it seemed like my day cldn`t get any worse. (plus my horrendously irritable mood)
but it got better.
THANK THE HEAVENS!
haha.
somehow, i really dun like pple telling me what i already know. it`s like confirming my fears and affirming my doubts.
that`s just........bad.
haha AIYAH i shall not let it affect me.
and it`s funny how ong noes me sooo damn well. it scares the hell outta me.
ok anyway hope tonight will turn out good. ciaos..

WOOO!
ac beat rj in the rugby finals 23-0
:)
the mobbing of the field was so cool. and the HAKA! haha. that was like a WOW. eye opener.
congrats to them all!
including NETBALL who beat HCI in the finals too.
SHORT SKIRT !! -grins- hee.

can you feel the spirit? ;)
it`s AC`s reign.

Stars Wars episode 3: The Revenge of the Sith
the graphics and special effects were good. but somehow, it was disappointing. i expected much more. maybe it was cuz the dialogue was just wayyy too tacky and cheesy. come on, what the hell is "you`re breaking my heart!" in that non-emotional voice. haha. -shakes head- oh yeah, and it could also be cuz we all knew the story line and i hated it cuz anakin HAD to turn bad. :( sob* so, throughout the show, i was feeling (for lack of a better and more appropriate word) PEK CEK! omg. -faints- hahaha. i`m so melodramatic. shld stop this.
anyway, i`m an avid Star Wars fan so i shan`t bitch abt the movie anymore. ahah Star Wars will ALWAYS HAVE MY SUPPORT!!! hahaha. :) i just loved it since i was a kid. maybe i was supposed to be a boy or sth. heehee.

aiights on to another topic..
something of more relevance to my current life.
okay, so what`s the definition of a HOLIDAY?
from webster.com, it states that it is "a day on which one is exempt from work"
ah haaa, the brilliant pple have got it right. EXEMPT FROM WORK.
(i can so predict myself preaching abt this once june hols start but ANYWAY)
so we have a public HOLIDAY on monday. ONE day. 24 hrs. a non-sch day. but of course, it might as well be a school day with the AMOUNT OF THE WORK THE TEACHERS ARE GIVING US.
grrr. hahaha. seriously, it`s madness. the teachers should like have a meeting where they decide who shall give hw for the weekend and not ALL of them givin us assignments simultaneously. it`s rather stressful, i tell u. hahaah.
we have a gp compre, a chinese exam practice paper, e1 essay, e4 essay, geog essay, maths tutorial, econs tys. omg, -feigns a gasp- those are ALL my subjects. -rolls eyes- ahhaha. i mean the teachers were students ONCE. dun they understand how we poor pathetic souls feel? awww, exaggeration again. oops. so i REFUSE to do any work today. it`s a SATURDAY. ahha a day to go out and have fun ;)
can u see i`m fulla complaints today?
haha reading my own entry can make me laugh sometimes. lol.
aiights time to stop..
laters pple.

i`m tired, really really realllyyy tired.
and i mean not only physically.
but every other aspect of tired too.
can i better express myself any other way?

i`m exhausted from this race.
would you please, please give me a break?

it`s time to stop and think.
and when i say think,
i mean really ponder deep within.

questions, doubts, unspoken truths are running through my mind.
like i said, i was tired.
bloody hell &@#^!*&@&@ worn out.

lunch was great.
dined at shang`s The Line w my sis n her other half. haha my gawd, i`m bursting at my reams.
:) but we sat at the most strategic spot, with the chocolate fountain staring at us. eeeps, thinking of it makes me salivate. but problem is, it`s 8.09pm and i`m still feeling stuffed. haha.

last night
simply indescribable.so many things happened. here`re the chain of events.

• cheryl`s supposed surprise party till d.k (trying to hide HIS identity) ran up the stairs.
• martinis/cocktails made by ivan the chef ;)
• pizza, beehoon, honey dew craze
• cake cutting ritual -winks at cheryl-
• a failed attempt at getting 5 pple into a cab
• reached indo-----
• some screwed up miscommunication
• half the world was present
• crowded dancefloor, lack of oxygen
• some friends left, disappointment
• reggae music (sucked)
• manda and sara arrived!
• RNB began, yeah baby
• sweaty bodies grooving to the beat
• a high fore-headed man staring
• confusion amidst the happy mood
• epiphany! a wretched plain clothes!!
• freaked out
• left due to bad welling feelings
• conversation with ongster
• dilemma
• uncomfortable, tense wait
• another failed attempt at convincin e cab driver to get 5 pple in
• reached z---
• serious advice from a big man in black attire. hahaa
• a glowing stamp.
• yet another vodka lime
• weird crowd
• weird dancing
• bad music, nice place
• mimicking :)
• good company
• finally chatting
• new friends made. uhh, sort of. ;)
• disappointing phonecall
• exorbitant cabfare
• home sweet home

it was a night hard to define. an unpredicatable night.
a night abounded with a mixture of feelings. some wrong yet some right.

i say it`s time to stop blogging.
it`s time for another week of school.

i`m worrying about my econs double test tmr.
worry worry worry.
haha.
oh this weekend is gonna be a busy one.
i feel suffocated. a lil.
haha i do hope it`ll be fun -crosses fingers-
i guess it`s better to have stuff to do then no stuff at all!
hah
this is one helluva lousy entry.
but i`d say tt it beats roxy`s and cheryl`s hands down.
;) i`d prob get more for content. haha!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

HAHAHAHA

yesterday was great!
got to meet up with all my darling friends. :)
had dinner at sakae then lounged ard at acid bar at night. mmm, was good.
haha i was so happy last nitee. whooo. lol. i`m crazy. :)
it was like the cloud hovering over me lifted.

today--
was great too!
had lunch at Hu Cui at Taka with my family. oh my, the food`s good!

THANKS TO EVERYONE FOR THE GIFTS AND BIRTHDAY WISHES.
much love/
:)

>>photos.

normal.

it was so normal.

am i talking in riddles?

good.

haha here i go again. :)

is normal good?

why do i always have to strive for exceptional?
life`s not always so peachy perfect.

i only wish it was. ;)

and dun worry, i`m not in a bad mood.

in fact, i`m sooo excited to meet the ooga*s + jy + cand!

i`m outta here. time to pause the thinkin and head on to the shower.

my plans have been ruined!!
GRRR.
upon hearing the wretched announcement this morning, you won`t believe how my heart fell.
i was in such a good mood somemore ok! i was even mentally prepared. DAMN.
why cant it be held next week ! rah.
i`m highly irritable.
when everything seems to be going right, some vile and evil force must come and ruin it all.
it wrecked my day.
it extinguished the secret smile i wore.

why do things always insist on going the wrong way?!

dun i deserve my moment of glee and delight?

can`t i indulge?


WHY THE HELL AM I BLOGGING ALL THIS.
I MUST BE INSANE.

know what`s most apt right now?

the song

"i am sixteen, going on seventeen"

hahahahahha

i need this entire night to digest what just happened at 7 plus in the evening.
haha..
man.. i need time to deliberate and ponder over this issue.
i know i`m supposed to be jumpin around excitedly right now but i`m a lil bit of a nervous wreck. okay, not a lil bit. A WHOLE LOT. haha.. ok so i do have this cheesy smile plastered on my face at the back of my mind but it`s not happening in reality. hahaha. oh gee. what the hell am i talkin abt!
i should be happy.
i am happy.
:)
or am i just psychoing myself to be happy?
hmmmm...
NO LAAA! are u crazy, sam!?!
sometimes, when the only thing you`ve been waiting for pops up right under your nose, you hesistate at that opportunity. i dun even noe why.
is it just human nature?
or plain fear of what you dread it most to be?

had a super great sunday night.
many hilarious things happened.
ivan`s a good bartender!!
whoo* x) so much fun yesss.
and i`m bored now. shall do this totally outta point and random quiz.

o1. Who did you last go out with?
a whole load of pple last night :) partyyy

o2. What do you want to receive on your birthday?
haha so appropriate! it`s coming soon. -hint hint- hmm, i really dun know. it`s a tough qn. actually, maybe i noe. but it`s a secret! :P

o3. What do u want to receive on valentines day?
that was a few mths back alr. no pt talking abt it. hurs.

o4. Reach your hand out to the right. What do you
touch?
a pillar.

o5. What do you plan to do for the next holiday?
hmmm haven`t thought abt it. i wish to relax and bask at the sandy beach OR just go shopping like crazy!

o6. What time did you sleep last night?
1 plus am. haha -yawn-

o7. What are you going to do 5 hours later?
sleep...

o8. Is there anyone you're thinking of now?
hahaha. funny qn.

o9. What was the last thing you touched before
the computer?
the keyboard. weird qn.. a pity i`m so bored.

10. What can you hear besides the computer?
the news from e tv downstairs.

11. Why did you answer this?
i`m bored to tearss.. and am feeling rather confused too.

12. Name a few people you saw yesterday
besides the people at home?
hmmm rox, cheryl, bonnie, ashish, eugene, ivan, charissa, siyou, ben, tim, max, ivan`s brother, karen, daniel, marc etc etc. i must be really bored to actually name them..

13. When was the last time you opened your
textbooks?
last yr. :)

14. Do you agree to the saying "Forgive is to
forget"?
nope. pardon me man.. forgiving is not necessarily forgetting.

15. When, where was the last time tears started
to roll down your cheek? Why?
ayeeeee.. i dunno man.

16. What makes you happy?
when pple make my day. or reading nice messages :)

17. What makes you sad?
hahah quite a number of things.

18. What are your favourite books?
thrillers, romance.

19. What would you like to have right at this very
second that seems totally impossible?
interaction and proper communication.

20. Who will you turn to if you have a huge
problem not all your friends know about?
roxypoxy

21.What's your favorite song at the moment?
mr lonely/ mr.brightside/when it comes/collide. looks like i like alotta songs

22.What was the last song that kept ringing on
your mind last night before you slept?
collide.

23.What was the best event that happened last
year?
getting my O level results!

24.Where are you planning to go for holiday and
with who?
hurhur i dunno where. anywhere`d be good. family and friends.

25.Who called you yesterdae?
hmmm cant rem.

26.Who messaged you yesterdae?
ahaha my friends.

27.Who do you love?
my family and friends :)

28.Who do you hate?
aye, i`m a peaceful person.

29.Who are your best friends?
bestie>> rox. close friends>> OOGA*s

30.Any god brothers?
hmm doubt so. actually, wait, i do.

31.Any god sisters?
yess.

32.Last time you were angry?
haha this morning

33.Last person chat with?
mommy.

34.Last words?
i love music.
this is sooo random.

yikes, what a lousy quiz.